When you are afraid of everything, you have to make a decision
about how you're going to live with fear in your life. The easy thing
might be to avoid the things that make you scared. But if you're truly
always afraid, then you won't be doing much.
The
alternative, of course, is to carry fear around with you, like an extra
appendage. Do the things you would normally do, with the weight of the
fear getting in the way or getting cumbersome at times, but
acknowledging that it's there and it's not going anywhere.
I'm
lucky, I guess, that I became afraid at a very young age, so I never
realized that extra appendage wasn't meant to be there. Like a cat's
relationship with its tail, it never occurred to me it should slow me
down.
So
when we were looking at google maps in preparation for this trip, and
we saw Mill Creek Road that essed with insanely tight turns up the
mountain, and when we zoomed the satellite view in and couldn't tell if
it was paved, when we were looking that over, and I was thinking, "I
don't know if I'm skilled enough to do this," what I said out loud was,
"Even if it's not paved, let's give it a try. Worst case--we turn
around and find a different route."
So
Bill and I packed up our now-dry clothes Thursday morning, enjoyed the
complimentary Marriott breakfast, and set off. It was still raining,
but we were warm enough, and traveled through Wilkesboro and Lenoir.
After a bit we stopped at a grocery store with a coffee shop and were
able to get a mocha. I texted friends, "Sweet weepin' Jesus, we found a
Starbucks!" We were wet (have I mentioned it was raining?) and tired.
But even through
all that, I realized, I was also having a wonderful time. If you know
me, you know I'm a total wuss about weather, but this trip has taught me
how magnificent things can be, even in the rain.
And
soon, we arrived at the most challenging part of our journey. Mill
Creek Road, off State Road 1400, past Andrew's Geyser. When we reached
the turn-off, Bill pulled over on the side of the road and stretched his
legs. "This is it," he said. "Get ready." I got off as well, and we
took off our helmets, scratched our heads, got the blood pumping
throughout our numb and tingling extremities. From where we sat we
could see paved road. We kept our fingers crossed.
After
a few minutes' rest, we geared back up, swung our legs in the saddles,
and headed off. Here the forest creeps onto the road, with the
underbrush coming right up to the road itself. It's about a
lane and a half wide, and within a hundred yards or so, we were on
gravel. Hard packed, but again, raining. The gravel was muddy and
slick. Near the inside of turns, the gravel had been washed out by
rain, creating that washboard effect. We climbed slowly up the hill,
twisting and turning, using the entire lane to maximize our traction on
the wet gravel. I remembered watching the Long Way Down when Ewan (hi
Ewan, hottie!) and Charlie Boorman were slogging through ridiculously
difficult conditions. They would fall and just get up and keep going. I
tried to keep that in mind. At these speeds, falling would be an
inconvenience and could damage the bike, but I would not get hurt.
Thoughts of my own perfectionism had to be banished, and knowing when it
was done, we would have accomplished it--that's what I focused on. I
also missed my Nighthawk and Bill's Vstrom, bikes that are designed for
this
kind of travel. Our cruisers were truly tested by this, as the center
of gravity is low and our feet stretched out in front of us prevent the
maneuvering you really need to really do this right. We had to muscle
our handle bars to get around the turns, and at times the washboarding
effect covered the entire road, creating a bumpy up and down as we
went.
The forest and underbrush were
thick here, and the road narrowed. We passed a sign that said, "Single
lane ahead--sound your horn," and Bill started beeping. We came upon a
one-lane pass that was covered (like a tunnel) and curved. There was no
way to see what was coming, and we beeped furiously, slowly rounding
the bend. There were several of these covered turns along the way, each
one more nerve-wracking than the last. But we only saw two other
vehicles on that road, one a pick-up truck that refused to yield and
sprawled
across most of the roadway. At first I was angry that he took so much
room, then I realized he was probably as afraid as we were, given the
difficulty controlling tires on the slick, muddy gravel.
At
one point the view opened up, and there was a large grassy field with
an enormous water spout shooting straight up. Andrew's Geyser, I
presume. We rode by, relieved for a moment by relatively easy passage,
and then tucked into the dense forest patch again. Soon enough we
reached the top, victorious. Neither had dropped the bike, and we'd
made it. "I'm so proud of us!" I shouted over to Bill, and we both made
victory fist pumps above our heads.
Now
for the trip back down, with gravity pulling us and the slick gravel
having as much decision-making power as our steering in terms of where
our bikes went. The curves wound tightly on one another, and the bikes
performed beautifully, and soon enough, we were on pavement again.
Woohoo!! We'd done it!!
Even after hearing the story from you two and knowing how it ends, I couldn't stop after I began reading this post. It's easy to get caught up and carried away by your writing style.
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