When you are afraid of everything, you have to make a decision 
about how you're going to live with fear in your life.  The easy thing 
might be to avoid the things that make you scared.  But if you're truly 
always afraid, then you won't be doing much.  
The
 alternative, of course, is to carry fear around with you, like an extra
 appendage.  Do the things you would normally do, with the weight of the
 fear getting in the way or getting cumbersome at times, but 
acknowledging that it's there and it's not going anywhere.
I'm
 lucky, I guess, that I became afraid at a very young age, so I never 
realized that extra appendage wasn't meant to be there.  Like a cat's 
relationship with its tail, it never occurred to me it should slow me 
down.
So
 when we were looking at google maps in preparation for this trip, and 
we saw Mill Creek Road that essed with insanely tight turns up the 
mountain, and when we zoomed the satellite view in and couldn't tell if 
it was paved, when we were looking that over, and I was thinking, "I 
don't know if I'm skilled enough to do this," what I said out loud was, 
"Even if it's not paved, let's give it a try.  Worst case--we turn 
around and find a different route."  
So 
Bill and I packed up our now-dry clothes Thursday morning, enjoyed the 
complimentary Marriott breakfast, and set off.  It was still raining, 
but we were warm enough, and traveled through Wilkesboro and Lenoir.  
After a bit we stopped at a grocery store with a coffee shop and were 
able to get a mocha.  I texted friends, "Sweet weepin' Jesus, we found a
 Starbucks!"  We were wet (have I mentioned it was raining?) and tired. 
 But even through
 all that, I realized, I was also having a wonderful time.  If you know 
me, you know I'm a total wuss about weather, but this trip has taught me
 how magnificent things can be, even in the rain.
And
 soon, we arrived at the most challenging part of our journey.  Mill 
Creek Road, off State Road 1400, past Andrew's Geyser.  When we reached 
the turn-off, Bill pulled over on the side of the road and stretched his
 legs.  "This is it," he said.  "Get ready."  I got off as well, and we 
took off our helmets, scratched our heads, got the blood pumping 
throughout our numb and tingling extremities.  From where we sat we 
could see paved road.  We kept our fingers crossed.
After
 a few minutes' rest, we geared back up, swung our legs in the saddles, 
and headed off.  Here the forest creeps onto the road, with the 
underbrush coming right up to the road itself.  It's about a
 lane and a half wide, and within a hundred yards or so, we were on 
gravel.  Hard packed, but again, raining.  The gravel was muddy and 
slick.  Near the inside of turns, the gravel had been washed out by 
rain, creating that washboard effect.  We climbed slowly up the hill, 
twisting and turning, using the entire lane to maximize our traction on 
the wet gravel.  I remembered watching the Long Way Down when Ewan (hi 
Ewan, hottie!) and Charlie Boorman were slogging through ridiculously 
difficult conditions.  They would fall and just get up and keep going.  I
 tried to keep that in mind.  At these speeds, falling would be an 
inconvenience and could damage the bike, but I would not get hurt.  
Thoughts of my own perfectionism had to be banished, and knowing when it
 was done, we would have accomplished it--that's what I focused on.  I 
also missed my Nighthawk and Bill's Vstrom, bikes that are designed for 
this
 kind of travel.  Our cruisers were truly tested by this, as the center 
of gravity is low and our feet stretched out in front of us prevent the 
maneuvering you really need to really do this right.  We had to muscle 
our handle bars to get around the turns, and at times the washboarding 
effect covered the entire road, creating a bumpy up and down as we 
went.  
The forest and underbrush were 
thick here, and the road narrowed.  We passed a sign that said, "Single 
lane ahead--sound your horn," and Bill started beeping.  We came upon a 
one-lane pass that was covered (like a tunnel) and curved.  There was no
 way to see what was coming, and we beeped furiously, slowly rounding 
the bend.  There were several of these covered turns along the way, each
 one more nerve-wracking than the last.  But we only saw two other 
vehicles on that road, one a pick-up truck that refused to yield and 
sprawled
 across most of the roadway.  At first I was angry that he took so much 
room, then I realized he was probably as afraid as we were, given the 
difficulty controlling tires on the slick, muddy gravel.
At
 one point the view opened up, and there was a large grassy field with 
an enormous water spout shooting straight up.  Andrew's Geyser, I 
presume.  We rode by, relieved for a moment by relatively easy passage, 
and then tucked into the dense forest patch again.  Soon enough we 
reached the top, victorious.  Neither had dropped the bike, and we'd 
made it.  "I'm so proud of us!" I shouted over to Bill, and we both made
 victory fist pumps above our heads.  
Now 
for the trip back down, with gravity pulling us and the slick gravel 
having as much decision-making power as our steering in terms of where 
our bikes went.  The curves wound tightly on one another, and the bikes
 performed beautifully, and soon enough, we were on pavement again.  
Woohoo!!  We'd done it!!
 
Even after hearing the story from you two and knowing how it ends, I couldn't stop after I began reading this post. It's easy to get caught up and carried away by your writing style.
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